you’re the one who taught me

you don’t pay for pussy

you pay a bitch to leave

cuz she might catch feelings

so you’d cum first

then me always in that order

maybe i’d fuck her with a strap on

pretend that for once

i could be the driver

mercedes, kylie, jessica—

you said they could all be the same

and when you asked again

if we could keep one

you heard yes already

so i let you go alone

by then i wore your name

like i wore the pretty black diamond

on my finger

each time you came home later

i stubbed cigarettes

into my face in the mirror

blew smoke into empty decanters

got up to watch the empty streets

from our 3rd floor window

i don’t sleep

when i close my eyes

i dream of you driving with her

and i’m in the trunk

and when i wake up

you’re gone

no note

who ghosts their wife

where are you living

if it’s not our home

remember when you told me

you super loved me

like you were drowning in it

now look who’s the idiot

i am—

i am drowning alone

so what are you gonna give me

to leave